So I turned 25 this month which is kind of terrifying. Because I have to admit that I’m a proper adult now, I’m not just some teenager pretending to be a grown-up. But the problem is that even though I am technically considered a “responsible adult”, I don’t feel like one.
I’ve always thought of adults as people with responsibilites like jobs and houses and cars. And I don’t have any of those things. I mean I could try and use the CFS as an excuse. But I’ve only had that for just under 2 years. I’ve spent most of my 20s not doing anything and even though I had a job for most of that time, it still felt like I was just pretending to be grown-up.
I am trying to fix some of that now, I’m finally going back to the course I tried to start 2 years ago. I’m going to start driving lessons. I’m trying to be more outgoing and do things I want to do (even if it means I have to do them on my own). But I don’t know if these things will make me feel like I’m a proper adult. I don’t know if anything will make me feel like a proper adult. Maybe its some secret my parents never told me, that no one knows what it means to be an adult.
Could someone please let me know if everyone is just pretending they know how to be an adult or if I missed the owl with my “totally now an adult” certificate.