I’m almost certain I’ve mentioned many times before that I don’t like calling this a book blog. Yes I blog about books but I blog about other stuff too. I never want someone to come here only expecting to see posts about books. But I can’t deny that I blog about books, which in turn makes me a book blogger. It’s taken me a long while to accept it but yes I am a book blogger.
So you would think that logic would also apply to graphic design. I do graphic design so that makes me a graphic designer right? But there is still a part of me that feels like I’m pretending to be a graphic designer. I go to school for graphic design, I spend quite a lot of my free time doing graphic design related things. But I still don’t feel like I’m a proper graphic designer.
I remember my lecturer once said that doing graphic design makes you a graphic designer. Even just doing it at college makes you that thing. But it doesn’t feel real. Maybe this is just going back to that whole I-don’t-think-I’m-good-enough-to-do-this thing. But even that isn’t really true. Though I go through moments of utterly hating my work, other people tell me it’s good. Heck I even won a design competition a few weeks ago. But I can’t see that. All I see are the things wrong with whatever I’m doing.
Maybe this whole problem is that I don’t think I’m good enough yet to label myself as a graphic designer. I’m not sure that I will ever think I’m good enough to label myself as a graphic designer. But I think I also have to ignore what my brain says and admit that yes, just like with book blogging, I’m doing the graphic design thing which technically makes me a graphic designer. You never know, at some point I might end up being okay enough with it to even change my twitter bio. Maybe…