It has been 3 years now since I was first diagnosed with CFS. Around 3 and a half since I first got CFS. And in that time I’ve come to realise how valuable my time is. I need to explain. I’ve been blogging for almost 5 years. At the beginning I decided I would write a post once a week. This would go up on a Sunday. I don’t think I managed that at all. I wrote like 2 or 3 posts a month. I was still making YouTube videos at the same time but not very frequently. At the time I told myself this is because I was busy with work. And I was, but not that busy. I was working part time so around 20 hours a week. Looking back I now realise this wasn’t actually a lot. I had ample amounts of free time that could have been spent blogging but instead I spent hours watching YouTube videos and scrolling around on Tumblr.
Now 3 years later and though I’m studying a full time course I would say I actually have more free time. I now know that I want to be doing something during that time, whether it be writing or designing or doing some other creative thing. But I can’t because the amount of energy I have is something I need to take into consideration. I’m now at this point where I’m watching YouTube videos or on Reddit and I’m annoyed because I know the thing holding me back from doing something is my CFS. And it really annoys me. I get so frustrated because I want to be doing something with my time and can’t do anything.
I guess what I’m trying to say is your time is a precious thing. Don’t waste it.